“The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.” Friedrich Nietzsche
I was up early this morning. The street lights still on, a faint hint of light to the East. Hmm? I thought. I am going to take photos at first light of that new batch of roses out in the garden. No harsh high noon light. The time arrived. The street lights were off and the new day was creeping forward from the horizon. I took the best photos. I was so pleased.
Then it dawned upon me. Had I put the card back in the camera. I checked. Hell no! I mumbled self abusive phrases as I entered the house to grab the card. This is not the first time I have done this. I put the card into the camera and ventured off for a second time into the garden. The light brighter, the chill still in the air, the neighborhood quiet save a crow in the distance. For a second time, I moved from rose to rose and enjoyed the second pass through the garden.
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Beautiful. But, oh, what silly things we do. More than once I have accidentally deleted photos before I have downloaded them. 😦
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Oh I did that in the middle of cruise in Alaska. Fortunately, I found this app that let me retrieve about half of the deleted images.
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Phew!
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Glad you got back out there fast enough – beautiful roses!
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I just saw the above comment from you & you are far more serious than I, with my little Canon click. Ah well. 🙂
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Lovely photo, lovely roses. I never get up early enough anymore! xx
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If it weren’t for the cats pouncing upon my chest and pawing at my face, I might not be up early either! I am the designated feeder most mornings while someone else gets their beauty sleep. 😉
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Good man! Mine feeds big Bella and she wouldn’t have it any other way. xx
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What type of lens did you use for this photograph?
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I normally use a Canon EF 100mm macro lens for flowers. Hand held today and a bit lucky. Thank you for visiting again.
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Great words and photograph. Thank you, love, nia
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That is a brilliant shot! 🙂 Love the vivid deep red.
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It seemed less washed out in the morning light. Thank you very much.
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You are mild mannered,, I laugh at my answer.
I write out of the space that my self criticism has more nasty in it, stays a little longer, my ego likes to bathe in resentment at times.
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Marty your self awareness is always helpful. Too many times, in the past, my self criticisms were equally dispensed toward others. All from heavy doses of it as a child. Impatience with others was the norm. Today, it lurks, but even toward myself I am more forgiving and mostly laugh at my disappearing memory and sense of self discipline. I partly chalk it up to age and having retired, my mind has wound down a notch or two…a good thing for now.
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Why is it that my awareness of others is so SOS so so much more acute, neutral in its balance and critique.
It is if a cloud hangs around our ears, when we peer inward distortion abounds.
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Well, I think just looking out and assessing is over rated. Learning about self via life’s journey, then looking out and carefully, cautiously seeing patterns in others, and self, helps form wisdom and the knowledge we are not alone. I am not convinced the patterns fit nice and snug anymore. Lots of variations to make overly simplistic critiques without really knowing the layers of the other person. You, I think, try to help yourself on your continued healing and others via your lessons you’ve learned. That is a loving, caring thing to do for others.
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May I add to your insight, and thank you for the kindness, however
That is a loving caring thing to do for others, it is first the most loving caring thing I can do for me also.
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I give and always I receive more, it is selfish in a way, No?
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I can’t think of it as selfish if done in respect and love with little or no ego attached or need to manipulate. I think it is noble and part of healing. These blogs are quite full of sincere people sharing their hopes, burdens, pain, joy. You and others raise my awareness, my patience, my self awareness and make me a better person in the long run.
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Wonder if we saw our life in linear terms little groups of a 100 breaths laid out each year.
Each morning we get a fresh set
Would we change how we see, view the world.
In an instant an observation
Did you believe life had more beauty the first time without the card?
If not why the upset, denigrating self lecture?
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Yes, I kick myself in the ass now and then. Good for me. All that positivity is nice…but, a bit of critical self-analysis is ok…’geeze, you dumb shit!” is quite alright for me. Thanks.
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